//

Basically the most beautiful table setting I have ever seen in my life.

History Repeats Itself, Especially Parenting History

At the end of the day I'm like, "what just happened?" There are quiet moments. There are even moments of connection. Enzo and Maria sleep on the same bed. It's a full size bed packed with stuffed animals. Every Most nights I go and lay down with them and sing a couple songs and make several mental notes - change sheets, change pillow cases, remove all these stuffed animals. And then lights off. And then, just like that the day is over. Sort of. My parenting Enzo and Maria day is over;  Eliza and I still hang out at night, nursing you know.

Most of my day is not filled with sweet moments. Its filled with short sentences. "You, brush teeth." "You, potty, wipe, flush." "You, diaper. Blow out."

My days are also filled with work. In fact that's what most of my day is filled with.

I feel like I'm back in school. You know how with school you study, study, study and there's still more studying to be done. You're basically never done. My job is like that. I'm not complaining, I'm just stating the facts. I work a lot. Christian works a lot. I hate how much my 7 year old works. I feel like he works way too much. I'm not a fan of schools starting at 8:20 and going until 2:20, I'm just not. I wish school was half day every day. He's just gone so much of the day and then there's homework. And just like that the day is over.

We were all sick last week and it was miserable, minus the part where Enzo was too sick to go to school but not too sick to enjoy himself at home. He just played with blocks and Legos and read all day long.

Then I started having problems nursing. I won't go into details. I will say that I am doing everything possible to not wean this baby just yet. She seems totally uninterested in food, except for eating paper. I should just leave random food on the floor and let her graze, or I could stop vacuuming.

Funny how history repeats itself, especially parenting history. I swear I was writing about the same things just a couple years ago when Maria was a baby - sleep deprivation, nursing issues, baby putting everything in her mouth. Also, all of our babies look exactly the same so there's that eery element mixed in there.

But you know, it doesn't get old. It's like when a friend has a baby and you're all like "awwwww, so cute" even though your other friend also just had a baby and you had the same reaction and you will forever have the same reaction every time you see a baby. It's like me pickng up Enzo and rocking him even though he's almost to my shoulder. For me they will always be babies and it will just not get old.

As for the pictures above, what does it illustrate? Just a glimpse of a moment in time; something that happens quit often - the kids wanting a snack after they've brushed teeth, after they're tucked in bed, and me caving. I cave a lot these days.

oh hi

Photo booth? No, our bathroom mirror. Christian took these pictures with my phone last week two weeks ago and I forgot about them until now last week when I started this post. Enzo and Maria were in the bath and Christian and I were ignoring them.

Say cheese!

Very early on in my blogging career I learned to never apologize for not posting. Frankly no one really cares if you blog or not. It's not that blogging doesn't matter, it does matter. It matters to me because I fell head over heels in love with social media and knew I wanted to build a career that involved social media. Also, I already have a box full of handwritten journals. Journals I started writing when I was 11 years old and because when I was 11 I actually had time so I wrote every single day for 8 years. This is not a lie. Ask Christian, he'll tell you all about my big box of journals and how we've had to haul this box on every single move. We've moved 7 times in the 8 years we've been married. He's made me swear to never write in a journal again. Thank you google for carrying my virtual box full of journals/post. Blogging is great! The other reason why I love blogging is because it keeps me on my toes as far as social media is concerned. I'm telling you, when my babies are old enough to tweet or facebook or whatever the next big things will be I want to be right there in front of my computer stalking them.

So yeah, life. Well life in the Palmer household went from busy to mega busy. I got hired full time with Glam! Yay! I'm an online editor. The official title is Editorial Producer. The un-official title is Editor Who Works During the Day and Then Some at Night. Typical. Good thing I like what I do. I also get to work from home (wouldn't have it any other way). Seriously, this is what I've wanted for myself ever since I decided that, well, this is what I wanted for myself. So come say hi to me at bliss.com and foodie.com I'm over there being an editor and stuff.