Hello old Friend

Two and a half years ago and some change I gave up blogging. I was so busy trying to fit it all in that a lot of things had to give and the blog was part of that process of sacrificing my sanity for optimizing my time so that I could be a highly productive employee and parent. I worked every day from 6:00am-2:00pm then dashed out the door to pick up my daughter at 2:05pm and help with carpool. I would get home every day around 3:00 and was doing kids and house work until 9:00pm. And yes, there were beach trips and there was fun but it was all while wearing my mom hat. After the kids were in bed I would often jump back online and work until midnight. I lived for the weekends, when Chris and I would go on a date, when we could have friends over for dinner, when I could sleep for more than 6 hours at a time. I did this crazy dance for a year and a half and then was forced to make a change.

I now work less hours for a much more family friendly (honestly, let's just call it life friendly) company and have started an amazing new journey of self-care. I sleep more. I eat better. I exercise. I wash my face in the morning. I go out on weekdays. This has been a hard process with some serious growing pains. I have had some serious paradigms shift that have resulted in mostly me expecting different things out of myself and being able to see my kids and my relationship with them in a whole new light.

I don't know what this blog will look like here on out and I am ok with that. For so long I tried to focus on how I would blog as a business. What angle do I want to have? What is my value prop? How can I monetize? I started two other blogs during this time and gave up on it pretty fast.

For now I'm ok with it being what it used to be, my happy place, no strings attached. I'm not going to do an editorial calendar. I'm not going to plan out my recipes months in advance. I'm not going to have a business angle to it. I already do that successfully for my day job, I don't need my blog to be that (not right now). It might go in a more professional blogging direction, we'll see. For now I'm just happy to be back in this space.

(all pics by Jonathan Canlas)