I haven't been posting recipes lately because I haven't been cooking. I also haven't had any time to post anything. As my project proposal and qualifying exams approaches I have spent all the time that possible to prepare for it. I have been feeling exhausted, angry, stressed, incapable, stupid, and so many other emotions. I think exhausted is the most prevalent which intensifies all the others. I am excited about my project, don't get me wrong. I will be documenting farm workers in the Central Valley and their struggle to access health care. I think it's an important project and I seriously can't wait to start recording. The problem right now is the heinous writing that I have to do in preparation for the actual field work. I know it's important but it's still heinous. I woke up this morning feeling really down on myself and decided to look back at a previous project that I did in Bahia, Brazil. For the summer of 2003 I spend my time in the cacao region of Bahia living with and documenting the lives of families who had participated in Agrarian reform and were now planting and harvesting organic cacao. It was the most enriching and fulfilling trip of my life and until today I make an effort to keep in contact with the families that made the work possible. I think this summer will be great and I am excited to talk to farm workers and document their lives. However, between now and and a couple weeks from now when I will actually be doing my interviews I have to get this awful proposal out of the way and my qualifying exams conquered. In order to feel inspired and remember why I am doing this I decided to look back at some of the pictures I took from my time in Bahia and remember why I love documenting people.